[His hands lift, both of them scrubbing at his hair like he might shake the thought loose. He's frustrated, but he isn't about to just give up on the conversation either. Even if it takes him awhile to figure it out, he'll keep going until he gets there.]

I've always been an uncool guy. I had the lowest grades in class and even after we got assigned to groups, nobody wanted to be on a team with me. I worked really hard and got to the exams and still nobody thought I could win.

They used to call me dead-last and I was a burden to my teammates. Even now sometimes I still am.

I'm a poor talker, so I'm not so good with words. My techniques aren't very stylish. I mess things up a lot and it takes me a long time to learn things. I know I'm not very smart'attebayo. But if I spend all my time afraid of being who I am, I won't ever be able to do anything.

It's okay to gotta grow some, and it's okay if some things stay the same.

Why're you so scared?